Friday, January 20, 2012

Being a single mom

OK, hey there..I am currently going through a big change in my life. In a matter of a couple years, I found someone I love dearly, had two kids with him, then in just a matter of a few HOURS my world....my life...was totally stripped away. I was not sure if at first he was serious or not. But when it set in, I found out he was! I did not understand at first why he wanted the divorce or why he didn't want to seek help. Now, I can tell you my opinion. 


My opinion on the why..because I still don't know exactly why. The biggest issue is he likes to play video games and wanted to do that all night and sleep all day. I believe he feels that if he is working, he shouldn't have to help with the baby (at the time it was only one), help with the chores or do anything with me. I felt differently. He then felt that I did not let him go out or do anything he wanted to do, when yet I always let him go out and do whatever. All I ever wanted from the man that I love was to be there for me, love me and want to do things with me outside of the house. 


Apparently by the time I was pregnant with the second child is when the "change" came. So, a little bit about that...I was dealing with my placenta separating from my uterus so then I was told I have a 1% chance of taking the baby to term. Nice thing....I went to 39 weeks! So, dealing with the emotional stress of that knowledge I was dealing with knowing he wanted a divorce. I had NO idea what to do. I cried...a lot. 


**Part two to come**